Over-thinking, Under-doing

Was watching an episode of "How I Met Your Mother" on StarWorld earlier (surprisingly, a very good sitcom), and the story was about how the lead character always thinks too much and not do anything about it.

Too many times, this is true for all of us. We may have the best intentions and dreams, but sometimes, more often than not, our over-thinking limits what we do in the end. Sometimes, we end up talking ourselves out of it. Sometimes, we scare ourselves so much with our thoughts that we do not do things confidently or just doing it half-heartedly. Sometimes, we just do not even attempt it after talking ourselves out.

There are also a lot of elements involved. Sometimes we love to get advice from our friends. To their best of knowledge, they will always give us advice on specific things. Soemtime we maybe thinking things thru too emotionally and not rationally. They will sometimes provide us with rational solutions. It maybe right when it comes to issues that are non human related.

Anything human related is usually very emotional. After all, we do have feelings and if it involves another person, what we do or not do will impact on the other party's feelings. Sometimes thinking rationally may not be the best solution. And sometimes, listening to friends may not be the best answer you can find.

In the end, most of the time, we end up confusing ourselves, with too many thoughts and inputs. Thats the human dilemma, whether to act with our feelings / intuition or the rational mind.
I'm usually very rational when it comes to non human matters, but when it comes to interpersonal matters, I'm always overthinking. Don't think there is always the right answer. If i had the answer, I wouldn't be typing this at this time of day. Its obvious I still don't know what is right, despite feeling right ;-p

The fear of losing stops us from doing. If we don't do, then we won't lose.

But are we really going to be happy with not winning? I want to be a winner, not a person who doesn't want to lose (although i do hate losing).

I want to act, but I'm really too afraid to act. For I know how losing feels and i'm afraid to lose again.


Boodyboy, out!!!

Early morning thoughts

Its 2am on a Thursday morning. I should be asleep now, but I'm not.

Was talking to a friend earlier about the past. As much as I would always complain about the past, and why I am where I am today.

I believe most of the time we will complain as if we were the innocent party when things dont go our way. I'm one of them. No doubt sometimes I feel upset when things don't work out right. I always wonder if it some1 else's fault. More often than not, we tend to blame other ppl for our failings (eventhough its really their fault!).

What we need to do sometimes, is to take a step back. Think about the whole situation. Do you think that what you did on your part is 100% the right thing? Or do you think that there was somehow a better way for you to have gotten things done?

We always tend to do a self evaluation, we complain to the world like we are the victims. Are we really that perfect?

I believe that I am not perfect. I agree that I made some mistakes of my own in the past. And I am where I am today because of it. I may complain but sometimes i just tend to forget that I may have a hand in my own failings.

So I'm not perfect. I made mistakes. But I know what I've done in the past maybe downright selfish, and sometimes just plain brash (maybe due to my lack of maturity ;-p). I may behave like a big baby when I don't get what I want.

But the great thing about it is that I know I made mistakes. Now all I gotta do is remind myself not to repeat them again, or else, if history were to repeat itself, I would have no1 else to blame; but myself!

So yes, if you are one of my victims which I used to complain (you of course, may not know it) I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings. You may have your own reasons for acting in the manner which you did. I'm highly critical of others, and I should apply the same standards to myself.

There, got this off my chest.


Boodyboy, out!!

Reflection

I've always been a fan of reflections. When ever the camera is in my hands, I will always try to capture a picture that encompasses a reflection.

I'd love to include pictures of reflections which i have taken in the past, but my PC has died, so I wont be able to show them to you today. But i would think that if you look thru my pictures in my Facebook and Multiply albums, you are bound to find a reflection shot in at least every album.

Thinking about this, I do realise that this style of photography which I favour, represents who I am in person. Friends who are close will know me as a person who does a lot of self reflection all the time. Whether this is a good thing or not, I won't know. But as far as I'm concerned, nothing is bad for you if it is exercised in moderation.

Well, maybe i do reflect more often than most people ;-p

Reflecting back is something I do all the time. Everytime I'm in the car alone it happens automatically. I reflect, but i also think ahead, ponder and wonder all at the same time when I drive. Maybe because I live quite a distance from anywhere hence driving time is the time for my mind to work itself.

Do I enjoy reflecting on a daily basis?

Well the answer is that it gives me mixed feelings. I can't control where my mind decides to ponder everytime I drive. Sometimes I reflect on the great things i have done, sometimes, the worst things that has happened to me or that may happen to me. On somedays, I just don't know why I even reflect those thoughts in the 1st place.

I guess my car is a thought bubble. Everytime I'm in it, my mind just runs riot. What if? Why? How come? What do I do? But i guess these few weeks, it's slowed down to one or only 2 things on my mind. Which is great, cause there's less uncertainty in my life.

Maybe its because of the past pace of my current job. Or the number of changes in my job that has occured around the same time I'm trying to accustomise myself there. Trying to make more friends while atthe same time, understanding everything about the company and my clients. Its tough juggling all these everyday.

ALthough I may not be able to juggle so many things at once, I'm glad to have been given this opportunity, this new lease on life. And today, the things I have on my mind while driving are so different than just a couple of months ago. Life seemed stagnant then. I wasn't going anywhere with my life. Life was a cycle then, albeit an easy 1. Today's cycle is a vicious, fast, exciting and tiring 1. But I feel energised, like a man reborn with a different mission to accomplish.

Well, I guess thats life. Everyday is different. Every month and year that passes is different. We may not know it, but i sure do reflect on them when they are gone ;-p

And remember, If a year passses without you learning anything from it, then its a year wasted. You will never get it back.



Boodyboy, out!!!