Friday, January 23, 2009

Goodnight goodnight

Look at the below video and the lyrics. The song is by Maroon 5, btw.



You left me hanging from a threadwe once swung from together
I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same
Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger
Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh

I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me,
I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa

The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember
The way it feels to be alive
The day that he first met her
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same
You make me think of someone wonderful, but I can’t place her
I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh

I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right
So much to love
So much to learn
But I won’t be there to teach you, oh

I know I can be close
But I try my best to reach youI’m so sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world

So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa, oh…Yeah

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Well , the video and lyrics seems to strike a chord in me. The video shows the guy going thru the same thing over and over again at the end of the video. To him its just a vicious cycle, with nowhere to go. The relationship doesnt seem to be going anywhere, despite them loving each other a lot.

However, things change and all he wishes is to see the same person he fell in love, to be back in those times when they were happy. but in front of him now stands some1 different. He's apologising for not being to hold to this relationship but it is not his fault. As much as he tries, its beyond his control.

It's a really sad song, and looking at the video i feel sorry for Adam Levine, although i think he is also a lucky bastard to act in that music Video!

But i feel sorry for the things the song writer / lyricist who wrote this song. Anyways, I've been looping this song the whole day. Enjoy the Chinese New year ladies and gentlemen!!

Boodyboy, out!!!

Justice should not only be done, but should manifestly and undoubtedly be seen to be done

Yes, the quote above is from Lord Kewart, CJ in the case of
R. v. Sussex Justices, Ex parte McCarthy.

This really got me thinking the whole of last night and today. Well it was only for a total of 2 hours at most as I fell asleep thinking about it, and I continued thinking about after I woke up and drove to work.

Yes, A person’s words and actions towards another means a lot. Here, I’m talking about on a personal level (i.e. friends, family and etc; whomever you are close with). As a friend to many people (well, ok, I’m lying, to a few people), I personally feel that what I do or say will reflect what I think of them. Of course you can try to disguise it if you don’t really like the person, but why live a lie?

So yes, all my friends know me for being frank and direct. And just by saying we are friends doesn’t really mean we are friends. We have to behave like friends. And this not only applies to your friends, it applies to your family, your spouse, your boyfriend/girlfriend and et cetera. Anybody can say, “Hey, that guy, Mr. X is my friend. I’ve known him for a very long time.” So what if you have known him for a very long time? Time is bollocks!! It is what you do or say that is more important than anything else in the world.

Of course, the weight of a person’s words can be as precious as gold or as cheap as an egg. It’s really up to that person to decide how willing he/she is to make his statement true. Anybody can say, “I love you”, “Lets meet up!”, or the all time Malaysian favourite, “Eh Next time “yumcha”!!”. Yes, all these phrases don’t mean a damn thing if all the person does is just say it. A third party who hears it may think wow, this people are really close. But in the end it is not what other people think that matters, it is what the other person’s; whom you spoke to, thoughts that matter.

Yes, growing up and experiencing all those bullsh!t promises has made me a more caring person. I’ve learnt to behave the opposite of what I’ve experienced to people who mean the most to me. I’ve always tried my best to honour my word when I say,”Let’s meet up!” Especially to people whom I’m really close to. But then again, more often than not, some of them take it for granted that I will always do things for them or act on what I say that they just sit back and wait for action on my end. Yes, most of the time I do it because of my principles and what my past has taught me.

But then again, sometimes I realize that, “Hey, this isn’t right! Why should I always initiate something?”

Would anybody care to take over what I do? Or is it that they have far more important things in their life than me, so they also actually do organizing, but only with the people who matter to them, and in that case I am not in their list then. Well, sometimes that maybe the case, and sometimes it is not.

Somehow, I just get this feeling that I’m not on most of my friend’s list, hence their lack of pro-active action. =(

Well, I think its just today. I just woke up feeling really sick of phrases like:-

Hey let’s meet up! (Never happens, without me initiating)
I’ll call you back later (Which then doesn’t happen)
Erm, I’ll let you know, cause if I have nothing to do then I’ll come (which means your event is the least important or meaningful to me)
I love you (… erm… well then show it! ;-p)
Okay! Sure! Lets go on a holiday. Its about time we went holiday together… (then nothing happens on their end)

Well, I’m only sick when people say those phrases to me. But to other people, they are more than willing to act on the above statements. Sigh… I guess I know where I stand now… You may call me whatever you want (friend or etc). You can tell people who I am to you. Heck I’m fine with that! But, don’t take me for granted and say things which you don’t ever mean. One thing my experience has taught me is to be considerate of every1 else, but not to close my heart to them. Had I been a stubborn person, I wouldn’t have given a damn! But the thing is, I’ve grown up wanting to be a better person and opening myself to other people. And that also means, opening myself to get hurt. Unfortunately, that’s how I want to project myself, as a good person who is a very willing friend and more!!

To those who read this, I hope you learn from it. And to those who consider themselves my friends or more than that, stop saying those lines if you don’t plan to act on it. Your words and actions means a lot to me. Just like the title of my blog! You have to be seen doing what you say!

Boodyboy, out!!

Monday, January 12, 2009

New Year, New Rant

I was beginning to think that i have to stop blogging because my mind has stopped wandering for the past few weeks. Yeah i think that age has finally caught up with my brain.
My mind doesn't seem to think and think and think anymore when i'm not doing anything. now my mind is also blank when i stare into space.

Gosh, the thought of that is really scary. How can my mind stop wandering?!?! Dont be lazy Boodybrain!!

Anyways, since there's nothing much that i really have to get off my chest, i guess i'll just do a little thing i like to call, :"things i did over the past few days". Well first of all, after getting my spanking new Casio WK1800 keyboard, i had my first music lesson on wednesday night. How far did i progress? WELL,I HAVE NOT PLAYED THE PIANO YET, as i'll be learning the theory part 1st (sorry for the accidental caps).learning to read and understand music notes is like learning a new language! Not easy, but i'm definitely determined to learn. At the end of the day, these are the few songs i really want to learn how to play on my keyboard: Baby I love your ways (by Mig Ayesa); Can't take my eyes off you; Sunday morning (maroon 5); Wei Yi & Kiss goodbye (Wang lee hom); and Jay CHou's An Jing, and oh yeah, maybe Atilia's Selalau Denganmu. Well at least these are the songs at the top of my head that i would reall love to play. Now all i need would be a really good and hopefully beautiful vocalist to sing as i play, hehehe =).

Yeah, i know i've been slacking off when it comes to updating this blog (no its not a chore), but yeah i think that is generally how my life has been, just coasting thru life over the past few weeks. Not that i've been having it easy, but i felt like the few weeks have just gone by in a flash.

Well, 2008 is gone. it has brought me many tears and joy (also tears of joy). But yeah i'm glad this year happened. It was a great year for me, and although there were some very tough times, i'm gonna remember every good moment and learn from every bad time i encountered. Inf act,i think this could be the most interesting year i had so far in my life, full of drama!The good thing is, i've made more friends than i've lost (if any at all). Oh and also, i managed to hit one of my KPIs set by IS, EC and JJJ in December 2007. Well it can be found in my multiply blog (the link is on the lef tof this blog)> yes, i hit thatKPI and i look forward to manybetter days ahead. Life is full of uncertainties but I know that i will have to make the most of situations and not take things for granted. If i want things to happen, i have to work hard for it myself.

With That being said; what is my resolution for year 2009 then?
Well the first thing that comes to my mind is to be Less Gabra (or not to be so kanchiong or rush into things head on).
Maybe secondly to lose 3kg frommy existing current weight. (i did lose weight last year, but the thing was i gained weight before losing it, LOL).
And thirdly, learn to play some tunes with the keyboard, thus ensuring it does not turn into a white elephant in my house!

Well, i guess thats my thoughts for today, I'd like to know what your resolutions are if any. Well, that is if there are still people reading this anyway...


Boodyboy, out!!!